The Blurb: Kit Devigny could have loved rock guitarist Noah St. John. Their friendship burned with the promise of intense passion and searing tenderness…until the night Noah deliberately shattered her heart. Noah knows he destroyed something precious the night he chose to betray Kit, but he’d rather she hate him than learn his darkest secret. All he has left is his music. It’s his saving grace, but it doesn’t silence the voices that keep him up at night. Chasing oblivion through endless one-night-stands, he earns a few hours’ sleep and his bad boy reputation. When a media error sees Noah and Kit dubbed the new “it” couple, Kit discovers her chance at the role of a lifetime hinges on riding the media wave. Wanting—needing—to give Kit this, even if he can’t give her everything, Noah agrees to play the adoring boyfriend. Only the illusion is suddenly too real, too painful, too beautiful…and it may be too late for the redemption of Noah St. John.
This is the book in the Rock Kiss series that I most wanted to read. Noah St. John has his demons, and in the first books in the series he’s referred to as troubled and broken beyond repair. Kit Devigny has always been Noah’s friend, and at one point they were moving towards something much more. Noah panicked and shoved Kit back hard; in fact, he broke her heart, and devastated, Kit walked away. The story opens with Noah at rock bottom and about to do something really stupid. At his darkest hour, he calls Kit.
Kit is an about-to-be A-list actress, having worked her way up from soap star. She met the band of rock stars when they were also just starting out. She loves Noah and always had until the night he destroyed what they were building. When he calls her drunk out of his mind, she senses that something isn’t right. She can’t just hang up or give up on him.
Kit was an exceptionally strong character. She loved Noah despite the multiple times he hurt her. She also has a stalker who’s been making her life a living hell. When she agrees to accompany Noah to a gala event hosted by his Aunt, she gets a further glimpse into the privileged but cold world where Noah was raised. As a result of the endless paparazzi photographs taken at the gala, it’s assumed that Kit and Noah are hiding a secret romance. To help Kit’s media presence, Noah agrees to play her fake boyfriend. Underneath it all, Noah has true feelings for Kit. He just doesn’t know how to act on them, believing himself to be incapable of loving her the way she deserves to be loved.
Yes, this book doesn’t have any serious romance until maybe the last 20%, but I turned page after page to get to the reason behind why Noah is the way he is. With the glimpses of what Noah and Kit could be if Kit could help him unravel the nightmare from his past, I read on. I did guess what the horror from Noah’s past was, and while I didn’t agree with how Noah handled his demons, I understood better why.